The loneliness and uncertainty of the haze approaches and surrounds me. It takes the beautiful colors from me and leaves me with only monotone hopelessness. Occasionally there are breaks in the mass and the brilliant beautiful light shines through. I step into the light and bask in the warm, life-giving energy, but then the light moves away and I am once again left to fend off the demons of the dark. More rays of light are visible nearby but I do not go to them because when I step into the rays they will only abandon me, leaving me to once again submit to the emptiness and hopelessness of the dark.
Then one day I am motivated to step into the light and then to follow it as it moves along the way. I discover that the longer I am in the light, the more wonderful things become. As I spend longer and longer periods of time in the light, the ray of light seems to become larger and larger. Before long my world is once again ablaze with color and excitement. How much time had I wasted in my self-pity keeping me from choosing to follow the light that was always nearby?
We allow ourselves to stay in the dark. It is a decision that we make. Happiness in life is not something that just happens, it is something that is worked for. A conscious decision is made and the happiness is sought out. Happiness cannot be had by just setting around wondering why it always passes by and moves on to others. It passes by because it is allowed to pass by.
I repeat a phrase that I came up with a few years ago, and I stand by its truth.
Life does not care about you, me, or anyone. However, life will allow you to do anything that you want to do with it.
If the light of life is allowed to pass by, it will move on and leave you there because it does not care. Action must be taken to make the light of life do wonderful things in each of our lives.
